about

MERIDIAN Poughkeepsie, New York

contact / help

Contact MERIDIAN

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: Conscience
Why are dying to live? when were just living to die, and it seems like there are no answers to counter a question as simple as mine. There is just so much I can take, all alone as I lie awake. I'm at the point where I can see my whole life's a waste, these walls I put up are bound to break. What happens when, the people who were always there from the start, get a hold of your heart and your soul and with no hesitation they rip them apart. I'm really lost inside my head, all hope is gone i wish i was dead and before I forget There's something left to be said. I'm a battered man, with no will to go on, and Ive been alone in this world for far too long.
Dragging myself out of bed, has never been this hard. there's nothing to look forward too, no reason to smile. Felling empty and focusing on everything I lack. While wondering what difference there would be if I were gone.I've never made a single impact on anyone.
There's nothing left, for me here. Its me against the world again. but I know that, this world has brought me too my knees, and I can see that I'm all alone. why keep trying to force a smile when it never works out in the end. I pray to god that one day I can make a difference to someone else.
Track Name: Mother
Mother this one goes out to you.
Everything you’ve helped me through.
I know you cared, I know you tried.
Life got to be too much for me
(life got to be too much for me)
It was never my plan to take my own life.
This empty feeling has left me a broken man.
With my back against a wall,
you were all I ever had.
God knows I’ve waited so long.
But I’m not coming home,
Until I know that I won’t be alone,
And that you’ll stay by my side.
I’ll be the light that will guide you tonight.
You were always in my heart,
From my moment me met,
Until the day that we fall apart.
(repeat)
God knows I’ve waited so long.
But I’m not coming home,
Until I know that I won’t be alone,
And that you’ll stay by my side.
I’ll be the light that will guide you tonight.
And if I ever fall, I’ll be the one that will bring you down.
Just to pick me up.
When I call I’ll hear your voice so you can pick me up.
When you look in my eyes do you think everythings alright?
When it hurts, and its not.
I swear this pains too much.
And I’m not pretending.
This isn’t goodbye,
I’ll see you soon.
Don’t forget me.
Track Name: Enemies
You don't realize the harm you've done.
Proving your own selfishness,
By bending reality,
To destroy my happiness.
You won't be be forgiven.
I hope one day that you feel the way I do
And watch your world fall apart right in front of you.
And when it happens I'll be there to laugh at your expense.
You will never get the best of me.
I walk alone.
I gave up everything,
To make something out of nothing.
In the end I had nothing at all.
Nothing to call my own.
I hope you die alone.
May you rest in pieces.
No matter what you do to me.
I'll rise to be the best man I can be.
No apologies can fix the wrongs you've done.
You dug your own grave now rot in it.
I walk alone.
I gave up everything,
To make something out of nothing.
In the end I had nothing at all.
Nothing to call my own.
I hope you die alone.
May you rest in pieces.
Somethings weren't meant to be,
But I swear to god you'll never get the best of me.
You'll be forced to live with guilt forever.
Wishing you never did this to me,
Hoping that one day I'll accept your apology.
Track Name: Misery ft. Scott J. (Tripface)
Why do I feel so empty?
What is wrong with me?
I’m so young, shouldn’t I be happy?
Forcing smiles and laughs won’t last.
Im having trouble confronting my past.
Things I’ve kept in my closet.
The skeletons no one will ever see.
I just want a clean slate.
Another chance to be happy.
To make all the right choices
I need guidance but I can’t find it.
It kills me to know, I'm miserable.
Save me.
Track Name: Father
All I know is that in time you’ll come back to me.
What separates us makes me stronger if only you could see.
You’re not a man, you’re a coward afraid to face reality.
You were never there to see me grow.
Selfishness is all you’ll ever know.
You wouldn’t even notice if I took my life tonight.
You’re blinded by your own ignorance.
They said to write you a song about the way I’ve been thinking this entire time, for my whole life, on how I’ve been feeling. These wounds aren’t healing but I’m alright. Thank god I made it out alive and I’m praying each day that you’ll be by my side. Life is looking up if you could fill this empty cup then I would be alright. I’d survive.
Struggling to breathe.
Send me a savior.
Faith is all I need to hold on to.
Father, hear me please.
If you’re out there,
Send me a message and give me a sign.
They said to write you a song about the way I’ve been thinking this entire time, for my whole life, on how I’ve been feeling. These wounds aren’t healing but I’m alright. Thank god I made it out alive and I’m praying each day that you’ll be by my side. Life is looking up if you could fill this empty cup then I would be alright. I’d survive.
Even when I’m dead and gone, I know you’ll see.
I’m more of a man today than you will ever be
Track Name: Hollow
It's pitch black but the headlights are blinding.
I'm spinning out of control.
But writing won't always give me the strength I need.
I'll write my pains away until my fingers bleed.
You found me searching for myself while I was looking for that person.
I lost track of the important.
Things that make me who I am,
Oh I was lost in your connection.
Always reaching for perfection.
When society brings you to your knees,
Throw the negativity
Right in their face.
Rise above the hate.
Make something of yourself,
Destroy all in your way.
All I know is sadness.
All I feel is emptiness.
My heart is running dry,
As time flies by.
All I know is sadness.
All I feel is emptiness.
I'm so hopeless.
There's so much regret inside these hollow bones.
I hope you can see, how much all this means to me, and I hope that you feel, the way that I feel
Track Name: Reformation
Fighting for something real,
I've gotten lost in the process.
My emotions clouded my judgement.
I was wrong.
I am weak.
I'll fight for another chance.
I'll fight to make this right.
I'm going to make this right.
I'm going to mend the mistakes I've made.
I will admit my faults.
This will make me stronger.
No longer do I have to be weak.
I've been given a chance to strengthen myself,
And my mind,
I guess I got caught up in the process, held on I almost lost it, went back to who I was, let go of the ones I loved, living for myself and no one else, this is a plea for help, and now Im fighting for myself
This is a reminder to never be,
The person that I was.
Living for myself and no one else.
This is my promise,
Not to go back to who I was.
This is my pledge,
To live, love, and learn.
I guess I got caught up in the process, held on I almost lost it, went back to who I was, let go of the ones I loved, living for myself and no one else, this is a plea for help, and now Im fighting for myself